Happy Toast August 31, 2009

I know I said I would only put up pictures I had taken, but I had a super crappy weekend. I needed something to cheer me up, so I typed in ‘happy background’ in google and this is what came up. I have it as my background, tiled, and it really does make me smile everytime I see it. I had to share.

So I met a guy I kind of like and we’ll see how that goes.

I brought home a kitten to take care of because he needed constant care over the weekend. His name was Lucas, but I called him Puffer because he had a puffy face. I feel in love the second I got him home, but unfortunately we had to euthanize him Sunday morning. I couldn’t save him and I cried the whole morning. I had stayed up all night taking care of this kitten and watching animal planet. So I pretty much slept all day.

Since Dan was in town I called him to come get ice cream with me to cheer me up. Unfortunately, it just made me feel worse because we got in a snit. I said something that made Dan snap at me. Dan has never snapped at me, or anyone as far as I know in the nine years I’ve known him. I was so shocked I basically burst into tears immediately. I decided not to get ice cream with him.

I’m two weeks behind on three art swaps, soon to be four. I haven’t worked out or worked on art since I went down to Cinci for the weekend.

On that note, I had an absolutely wonderful time in Cinci. I’m so glad I went. We ate AMAZING food the whole weekend, we got to relax, we dressed up and went out. I love my girls. I also got to see my friend Justin who I haven’t seen for awhile and I got back in touch with my friend Dave.

So I know my post sounds kind of negative right now, but really, life is good, even if it knocks me down once in awhile. I really have a lot of good things going for me. I just need to get back on my path, especially with art and working out.

I did join a band. I’m looking forward to that. There’s also an online art journaling class I’m thinking about joining.

Art in Me August 12, 2009

Moss is very hard to draw, as is water. Just in case you’re wondering that. I would love to draw this scene, and others like it inspired by my pond out back, but it’s frustratingly difficult.

My friends have put me in a good mood two nights in a row. I’ve been in something of a funk, and both nights I come away from my friends with a refreshed air, and happy mood, and thankfulness that I have people like them in my life. I really am lucky. I just wish I could hold on to that attitude, that feeling, instead of sinking back down into …blah.

Usually when I’m in a funk I’m rather anti-social. I don’t have much to talk about and I know I’m no fun, so I don’t subject anyone to it. At the same time I crave attention, someone to just be by that cares about me. Weird I know.

You’ll usually find me, by myself, at bookstores or art stores. I read books, because for awhile I can be someone else, somewhere else, without any real worries. Even if I browse the art store for hours and only come away with a new pen or a new sketchbook it makes me feel better. With that, I can create something beautiful even though I feel ugly inside.

Smell of Hawaii August 11, 2009

My friend got me this soy candle when she went to Hawaii. Apparently, Hawaii smells just like this candle. It makes me smile every single time I look at it. I don’t want to burn it!

Yesterday I took my friend out for her birthday. We got coffee, talked for awhile, and then went to go see Julie and Julia. I loved that movie, it is a must buy when it comes out. Guys will not like it unless they appreciate cooking. Meryl Strepp (sp?) is amazing. It gets a little slow at the end, but it was a great movie. I had a wonderful time with my friend, it was very refreshing. I’m so lucky to have her in my life.

I decided I want a love like in that movie.  The love that Julia Child and her husband had is a love of fairy tales. One in a million. Do I really have any chance of finding that?  I want a passion like in that movie. I don’t really have anything that I jump out of bed for in the morning. The only time I can remember being excited about getting out of bed was for traveling. But I’m talking, a purpose in life; something that makes every day worth living. Traveling can’t be a purpose can it? I don’t know. I have many things that I enjoy. And I know I am passionate about art and animals. I’m just rambling, it’s what blogs are for.

Oh, and I want to live in Paris. They made it seem so romantic and wonderful.

End of the month Summary – July 09 August 1, 2009

Summary

Days Total: 31

Days I worked on Art: 7 – I created a painting I am very proud of based on one of Van Gogh’s paintings. I also finished up my life drawing class, so now I am looking for a new class to take.

Days I worked out: 5 – LAME

Things I accomplished/Things worth mentioning: KATIE GOT ENGAGED!!!! So very exciting. We are planning the wedding and I am co-maid of honor. It’s so very exciting. I found a new crush. He is amazing, and what’s worth mentioning is that I had the guts to ask him out. He has a gf, which I expected, but I’m very proud of myself for asking. Everyone was so worried he would say no, I was a bit more worried he would say yes. Anyway, yay for me. Anna moved to Japan. I will miss her, but I am so very excited for her. I went to a behavioral conference for animals, which got me thinking about going back to school to become a registered vet tech. I’m looking into this now. I scheduled a vacation for myself to go down to Charlotte, NC. I’m very excited.

Things I would like to accomplish for next month: Definitely paint and draw more. Work out at least twice a week. Look into art classes/a new gym with kickboxing/vet school. Clean up my room (Seriously).  Try and find a second job. Create another Van Gogh-like painting.