Bad Ass! September 23, 2010

I was super bad ass today! I am so proud.

I got up early and went to talk with my college counselor. She was impressed with how much I had organized already. We figured out classes, so that I might even be able to go to grad school this fall! Otherwise it will be two years from right now before I get to grad school. I don’t want to rush things, but I’d much rather go in one year then two.

After that I was super motivated and went to the mall to find a new clubbing/salsa dancing shirt/outfit. Instead I got four camis. Normally 1 cami is $18. I got them at the 2 for $16 deal. Awesome! I also got sweater because I’ve needed something lighter then a jacket for fall. I went out of my black/white comfort zone and got red! I also got the most bad ass shoes. (Yes, bad ass is the word of the day) http://www.journeys.com/shi/product.aspx?id=171010&p=shoes&c=966&l=black&m=SM

I also got talked into a straightener by a very good businessman. I’m not going to tell you how much I paid for it, usually I’m smarter about large purchases. Like the shoes, I walked away, thought about it, and came back. But this I just bought…not like me. It’s a little hard to swallow how much I spent on it, but I have a lifetime guarantee, and if I really use it I’m sure I’ll get my money’s worth. What really caught my attention was that he curled my hair with it, beautiful curls that actually stayed put. No, since I’ve been home I have not been able to replicate this. At the mall though I pictured myself actually doing my hair for going out and parties and whatnot.

I’ve been feeling like I look almost ‘unkept/sloppy’ with my hair lately. No matter what I do with it, it looks bad, like I don’t brush it our anything. So as long as I actually use it, this could be a very good purchase for me.

After the mall I took a nap, which was wonderful. Then I cleaned the bathroom. I cleaned everything; the sinks, the counter, the mirror, and the shower. I’m so proud, it hasn’t looked this clean since it was built.

After cleaning I realized I was sweaty, so I went to the gym and did kickboxing for an hour. NICE!

Then I came home. I was going to go salsa dancing for the first time in months, but I didn’t really want to go by myself and I was content to just relax at home.

See how awesome I was today! I really hope I can keep this up, because I have lots to accomplish.

But for now, it’s off to bed. Good night!

Dates January 22, 2010

This is a puzzle I did with my dad while he was recovering from surgery. I wish I could have taken a better picture of it, but I had to clear it away for euchre night…..which ended up never happening….but I really like this puzzle. We recently got  a new puzzle to work on that I look forward too.

So life’s been going. My week off was pretty good. It started with me getting my ass into gear and getting to the gym….which really made me realize that I need new tennis shoes. When I was there a personal trainer found me looking at a weight machine oddly and helped me out. Then he managed to schedule me for an absurdly early free personal trainer session.

Long story short, I apparently need to eat 2340 calories to maintain my body weight, so I should be eating 2090 to stay healthy, but lose some body weight. Good news: I only have 15% body fat. Woot! I thought I had more. That puts me in the athletic category, right above lean (which is 10%-13%). So I’m not to far off that mark. Just need to work out a little more consistently and eat a bit more consciencely and I’ll be leaner! Since I was considered athletic the PT really pushed me. My chest muscles were so sore today it hurt to breath. But it was a great workout and I am a little more comfortable around the gym. Needless to say, I turned down having a personal trainer, I cannot afford it.

On another note I have suddenly had very good fortune in meeting guys. I went on a few dates recently, but I didn’t enjoy them as much as I thought I would. There was no reason for me not to have fun and be happy. They were all very nice guys, all cute, all a little bit older, very gentlemenly. I figured out why. I’m not as confident as I was before last year. I used to be so self-assured, so comfortable, that I could just relax and enjoy being on a date. The last few dates I’ve been tense and nervous. A feeling that is …alien to me when it comes to guys. I don’t like it. I don’t like that I’m so guarded, tense, and untrusting. I just need to give it time, I figure and just keep going on dates. It might help if I stop looking so hard for a guy and then being disappointed when the ones I find aren’t perfect.

I don’t know. I’m tired now. First long day of a long week of long days. I’ll post again later this week (which is actually next week, just not on my time frame), and hopefully my thoughts will be a little bit more put together.