Daily Picture – 12 July 9, 2010

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Bunny Honey

This is my bunny Nala enjoying some food, although she stopped eating because she was curious about the camera.

I like this picture because if you look at the deer’s face it looks like she’s saying ‘OH!!’, like she’s surprised.  In fact I can’t look at this picture now without it looking like she has her ‘mouth’ open in surprise.

Just fyi, yesterday was definitely one of the worst days in the history of the world ever. But! I got through it. I moped and pouted and slept. Today was better. Not good, but better. In an effort to make me feel better I’m being lame and listing good things from the last 48 hours:

A friendly cockatiel; small friendly kittens; the sound of a kitten purr; a 150lb great dane named Apollo and cleaning his teeth (it was calming, quiet, and he’s got sparkly pearly whites now); cat nap at work; fun clients; coffee; xrays turning out well; getting labwork done and organized; getting a paycheck (with bonus); a hot shower; not getting a major injury; my comfy bed; a good book; homecooked meal (japanese curry, jasmine rice, chicken, onions, and potatoes); air conditioning.

Ha…I was able to think of more bad things that happened and stress-related things then I was good things….but at least I have a nice list of good things. We’ll ignore the bad/stressful things for now and go to bed. Good Night.

Daily Picture – 4 June 24, 2010

6-24-10

O-H-I-O

The ‘I’ broke.  Birthday gift from my dad.

I kind of felt like this today. I girl without an identity. Someone people don’t know, don’t invite to things, don’t remember. It shouldn’t bother me, but it does. Especially at work. My coworkers all hang out outside of work. I’m not invited. No, I don’t want to go downtown and get drunk, but it would be nice to be invited. They have celebrated everyone’s birthday at work so far. Mine came and went, no cake like everyone else got, not even a general ‘happy birthday’. It sucked. I like who I am. But at moments like this, I wish I was more to people, not just ‘that girl behind the camera’.

I got my shoes I’m going to wear for my sister’s wedding. She said I had to get silver. I got sparkly glitter ones because I don’t have any shoes like that. I’m also excited that it’s little heals so I can wear them all day long. Now I just have to go get my dress fitted. Btw, I feel fat. But I blame that on the crappy day.

My seedlings are sprouting. 🙂

Thoughts January 9, 2010

Livestrong

For the last two or three days I’ve wanted to write a blog about lots of different thoughts I’ve been having. But I sit here and can’t think of anything…maybe if I just type it’ll come to me.

New Years was pretty good, although it did not feel like New Years. I did kiss four or five people. Yes, I say people because my friend (girl) ambushed me.  Heck, I kissed a guy just because he brought me water. With a lemon! Fancy. hehe, it wasn’t making out, just fun kisses. I think this year is going to be better. I felt opportunity and possiblity and motivation……

…….for a total of about half a day. For some reason I don’t feel very motivated. I should; I had three days to clean my room, organize, work on art…and I pretty much just slept because I feel like I had the energy to even make the effort to read. Sad.

Well, I need to change that. I’ve been trying pretty much non-stop to find a second job, even going back to old jobs I said I’d never got back to.

I’m not sleeping well..haven’t been for awhile. I think I’m stressed even though I don’t think about things that bother me, consciencly. Money is a big one, I need money for Japan, I need money for meds/bunny food/essentials, to save, etc. I want to go out and have fun, but once a week is really all I can do, and I always feel bad when friends say it’s only $10 or $25. That is alot. It adds up. Stop pushing me, I’ll do what I can. I’m not avoiding anyone, it’s not that I don’t want to hang out, I financially cannot do it! Frustrating, let me tell you. I’m really trying to be financially smart. But even that is really not helping. Cause I’m not making enough.

I’m stuck in a dead-end job and it’s rough. I don’t want to be an assistant forever. There is no where for me to move forward in this job. I will be there for another year, maybe, but not much longer. I need to find out what I’m going to do after this year. Vet school for equine, Vet tech (probably not), or Masters – animal behavior.

It would be nice to move to move to the Carolinas for a year or two. It would be nice to visit out west. It would be nice ot have a goal.

I guess money’s the biggest thing. I knew I’d never make a lot of it, that’s okay. But I need to at least survive, and I can’t with this job, not on my own.

I really want to work more on art. To do more with my days. To do more things, see more people, accept more challenges. But how long will my motivation last this time? Will it last til tomorrow.

I need to buy new shoes for work and for the gym….that’s at least $100 right there. Cause I need to buy good shoes. I’m at home right now, 7pm on a Sat nigt because my feet hurt, my head hurts, hell, my whole body hurts. All I want to do is stay in my pjs, work on my art, and stop hurting.

Another reason I want a job, it will force me to be more productive with my time. Instead of wasting days, I will at least make some money.

Okay, I’m done now. I’m watching DejaVu with Denzel Washington in it. I’ve soaked my feet and mom my feed me (one good thing about living at home). On the next commercial break I’m going to go get my inspiration book and add a few more pages. Or maybe I’ll plan some of the Japan trip. I also have a travel journal, maybe I can work on that.

I have things to work for and to look forward to. Sometimes, for whatever reason, I forget, or am overwhelmed with the negative of life. Usually, I just sleep. Then the next time I wake up, I notice something positive.

Things I have been thankful for since Wed:

*my family*snow*postcards*my art magazine that comes in the mail*puppies*my very comfy bed*the fireplace*hot showers*friendship*coffee (that one was important the last few days, so it’s mentioned twice)*nice cats*helpful coworkers*time well spent*a full nights slept, without waking up*the smell of a Christmas tree*time to paint my nails, any color I want*my new makeup*possiblities*Japan trip*

I think that’s enough. Sorry for the long post….if you made it this far, I’m impressed since I didn’t really make this readable. It’s just a train of thought.

Choo-Choo!

Cat.On.My.Back! May 16, 2009

Yesterday was an okay day. We had half an hour to kill at work and there is this adorable cat up for adoption in the clinic. I played with him for the half an hour, cause everything was done and I figured he needed to run around and play. I did too. So we played. His name is Doug, I call him Dougie. Although I think he looks more like a Gary. Well after playing for awhile I stood up and just let him run around, but he really wanted to be by me. And I had an entertaining time watching him trying to jump up the counters, which he was to small to jump on. And as I giggled I suddenly felt little claws on the back of my leg, on my but, and then on my back. Suddenly there was a cute little big eyed face looking at me saying ‘Isn’t this great! I’m up here with you now! Love me!!’ And all this time my brain is registering slight pain and CAT. ON. MY. BACK. Once I got him to let go with his claws we laughed about it, but it was a slight unpleasant surprise that was completely outweighed with cuteness and love. I would adopt that cat if I could. And that’s alot coming from me.

So today I feel even crappier. I feel like complete shit actually. I think my body is still in shock. We had a dog attack today. No one got hurt, thank goodness, but it scared the hell outta me. It was me and a doc and we were trying to draw blood when all the sudden the dog lunged at her. We both backed up from the dog and stopped touching him cause usually that’s all it takes for them to stop. But then he lunged at her again, and then again. The third time he came very very very close to biting off her face, it caught her hair in it’s mouth. Thank god I had the leash in my hand still and I yanked it away. She moved back as far as she could, the owner was trying to control her other two large dogs that were in the room, and I just stood there holding a leash to an attacking dog thinking ‘oh my god, what if he turns on me?’ We got him to stop lunging by throwing treats at him, and after we made sure everyone was okay we booked it outta that room and muzzled that dog and got that stupid blood draw. Just for the record, he’s not a mean/bad dog. It was just to much and he snapped. It happens. But it scared the hell outta me. The doc said I did exactly what I needed to do and that I saved her life. Maybe not her life, but definitely her face. So I feel like I need a nice shot of Petron, however it costs nine dollars which is an hour of work and I just have issues spending that money. I think I would feel better, but whatever. I don’t know what I’m up to tonight, I’m lonely, depressed, and crappy. It was a rough day. Thank goodness for Dougie, after the attack I said I needed a break, stole the cat, and sat in one of the exam rooms for awhile just trying to get myself under control.

So everyone’s okay. I have a day off tomorrow. I feel absolutely horrible and I wish I had someone here with me. Of course I’m by myself, I’m always alone now. Sorry for the depressing post, but I’m still trying to ..well, feel better. I really don’t have anyone to talk to, so this might help.

Good Things are Happening May 7, 2009

I love that these little clovers decided to grow in this seashell. I’m going to draw or paint this eventually.

So, here’s what’s happening in my life. I am a bridesmaid in Justin’s wedding. I’m so excited I can’t stand it. This means so much to me! At the same time I am a little depressed because I don’t have anyone right now. So I’m a little sad and lonely, but if I think about it. I don’t want to be married right now, I don’t think I’d even be okay being engaged right now, so it’s okay then I’m single. Don’t get me wrong, I’m so excited for Justin and Katie, and everyone else I know who’s happily with someone. It just got me thinking, and even though I’m lonely, I’m okay being single. So, back to the original statement: I’M A BRIDESMAID!!!!

I was in the newspaper today…the picture took up 1/3 of the page….and in my opinion it’s a horrible picture of me. But it’s exciting to be in the paper. I’m in there because they did an article about where I work.

I won money at archery for the first time in my life. Very exciting. It was after work, I went to the money shoot mostly because they had pizza and if I would have went home I would have crashed. So I went to the shoot, ate some pizza….and didn’t really shoot because I didn’t have the strength to pull my arrows through the clicker. I stuck around, and eventually they called my name, and I shot one arrow, dead center. Yay!

I looked super cute today. Just as a side note.

Yesterday, at work, there was a gremlin who was pretending to be a dog. It was a little pug/bulldog mix……and sometimes it would sound like a normal dog, but when you weren’t looking at him, he made gremlin noises. Little sqeaks and clicks….it was highly entertaining. Seriously, go watch the movie Gremlin, the noises from that movie, this little dog was making. So I called him Gremlin the whole day he was with us and he made me giggle every time I heard him.

I finally clipped my bunnies nails. Zoe broke my bracelet from Spain (I can fix it) and Nala gave me some good scratches, but I held them long enough to get all their nails clipped and I’m proud. Nala wouldn’t go back in her cage for an hour. My little plants are growing. I love the green color the trees are outside my window. It’s beautiful weather. I’m going to be in a wedding. 🙂 Work is going great. Life is good.

First Day on the Job April 6, 2009

I like how you can see the moon.

It did not look like this today. Yesterday it was 60 degrees, today it was snowing. Gotta love this place. I had my first day of work today. I was supposed to work 7:30-6:30. I worked til 8:30. Woot! I kinda hope this isn’t going to be a normal thing, cause 13 hours a day is rough. My feet are killing me. And I still gotta pull these hours for the next two days.

But today was excellent. Time flew, everyone was wonderful, free good food, cute adorable pets. It was a very good work day. Although now I’m going to go crash. I haven’t been doing any art since Wed. I also haven’t been to the gym for about two weeks. So I need to fix this. I could go now, but I think I’m going to coma instead.

I found an absolutely AMAZING tea place: Teavana. I love it. Wonderful. Unfortunately, it’s not a sit-down place, but it does have high quality wonderful tea. So that’s great.

I really would love to type more, but I need to crawl into bed, or I’m going to sleep at my desk tonight. Night kids. I’ll write more later.